I used to be out every weekend socialising around the town, drinking away the hurt, the pain, the feeling of shame.
I used to be surrounded by beautiful individuals with such big characters but in the back of my mind, I didn’t belong I was just the girl that could hold her liquor.
I used to be care free, easy going, ready to conquer the world. Now I fear my own shadow, afraid of what pain the world might bring next.
My heart is weighed down by the beautiful prospect of my future, can my feet walk in the direction of my “destiny” or are they rooted in place, held down by the fear of releasing my heart to freedom.
Do I exhale the bullsh*t & set it free?
Can I set it free?
Am I so used to living with the pain that the thought of releasing myself to the universe, the thought of potential happiness, the thought of exhaling the bullsh*t….frightens my soul?
How long will I be waiting to Exhale?
Meditating every evening before bed is something new I’ve implemented into my night routine. Being able to end the day correctly & positively is a task for me but hopefully with guidance & perseverance, I can master this task.
I’ve listed a few things below that I’ve found helpful in centring myself as well as meditation tips.
Below you will find a meditation video, that I personally found extremely honest & helpful.
Just to clarify for my readers, no I haven’t become a poet in my time away. I just had thoughts in my mind that I felt the need to express & release.