For yearrrsss I’ve wanted to cut my hair, I think since I was in school to be fair because I remember when my younger foster sister first did the big chop & I was so gassed and excited for her, I agreed to cut mine the following week. If memory serves correct I believe I made the same promise at least 8 times.(shame on me).
I’d be right to assume people actually got sick of hearing me say it but not actually doing it. What the people close to me didn’t know was that each time I went to cut my hair, I would get distracted by something. At first I failed to notice the two factors related, I knew I wanted to cut my hair but for some reason I was never able to allocate time to doing it…well it was after a few failed attempts & a long chat with my friend & mentor, did I realise it was only my bloody anxiety, hindering me, as always 🙄. The thought of making such a dramatic change no matter how badly I wanted it was just too overwhelming for me.
Well this year I decided to take the leap, a lot of negativity had occurred at the start of the year. It genuinely got way too much for me and I kind of had my own little Britney moment with the benefit of my foster sister doing the shaving.
It was a tremendous moment, I hadn’t had my hair cut since my biological mother shaved my hair at the age of 5. I felt like all the pain & anger from my past was literally falling away to my feet, the weight on my shoulders were slowly unburdening. With each stroke of the clipper I felt the relief engulfing me.
Having no hair was most certainly a shock to my system. Over the years I’ve experimented on my head in different ways, using relaxers & hair dyes, weaves, wigs a bit of everything. I’ve damaged my hair & brought it back to life again. As black women, our hair is our crown, even when unhealthy & damaged, we try to hold onto it because it’s what we’re used too. I was quickly able to adapt to this change. Although it took me a long time to do it. I did it and for me that is an amazing accomplishment. I love feeling the fresh air on my scalp & being able to actually to feel my scalp.
Everything about my Big Chop was a delight, it came at a point in my life when it was truly needed. For me, personally cutting my hair was a moment of growth. It awakened something in me, encouraging me to cut other toxic things out of my life.
Before I sign off, I’d like to recommend to my users, if you are planning to shave your hair completely or even an unexpected dramatic cut, definitely make sure you document it. Before and After pictures are amazing to look at, share & keep for memories.
“A woman who cuts her hair is about to change her life.”
– Coco Chanel